Enduring the Wait

Raptor 1 · Joined: 12 Oct 2007 Posts: 495 Location: Abilene

The ability for me to not believe in a tangible God has been impossible. I will not look anyone in the face and say that I have not wondered “what if” this is all figments of my imagination, but when I do, my Daddy comes and does something that is exactly what I need to remember that he is still on his throne taking care of his kiddo. He is as real and tangible as the keys to this keyboard I’m typing on.

This week was no different. Things have been difficult for my family. We are in a transitionary time of our lives that involves not knowing where we are going next. We know that we cannot pay all of our bills at this time with my current salary. I have asked for a raise on two separate occasions (the last any of us received a raise was 3 years ago) and was told that no one is getting salary increases at this time. We have up until this point survived solely due to student loans. But now I’m graduated. No more loans. We have been applying to places everywhere we can find, but the qualification levels are still too high for what I want to do.

This adds an expected level of stress and concern. Our rent is paid until the end of July (thanks to the student loans) but as you know, the time is drawing nigh. I have asked myself questions such as “am I living disobediently” and “am I doing something wrong.” We have continued to tithe, bless, and give what is scripturally referred to as “offerings” since we believe that an open hand to give is an open hand to receive (not necessarily just money but other blessings as well).

That led to yesterday. At the end of the sermon the pastor noted that he felt that he was supposed to say something. He stated that there were individuals in the crowd that were in a season of waiting. That there had been no movement and that the stress was mounting. He mentioned that now is a time to rejoice, since Gods movement is coming. Alright, so this can seem like a generalized statement that could apply to anyone at certain times of life right? Kind of like a fortune cookie, palm reading or horoscope fundamentally (which in itself is negated In my case due to the fact that it was as meaningful and timely as it was).

When I got home I was philosophically pondering all of this as I was getting ready to go outside and continue building my kids new playground set. I put my MP3 player on and began working while singing to the songs. The first song that came on I was singing to the words not thinking about them. I then realized that it was the song “Keep Waiting” by Stavesacre. The words, taken for God’s standpoint, go “keep waiting, I’ll be right on time. Keep waiting.”

I know that skeptics and cessationists might argue that these were a series of random events. But these events were carefully woven together in such a way that created and engendered hope and encouragement for me, for my exact situation, at precisely the right time. They were almost tactilely perceptible gestures of love. The right thing that I needed at the right time.

God is actively moving. I sometimes see God as some ethereal being floating somewhere up above, when in fact, due to the Spirit, he is ever present, watching out for me as closely as I watch out for my children. Protecting us, loving us, and even interacting with us. So the message from God, “I’ll be right on time.”
_________________
"Hard pressed on my right. My center is yielding. Impossible to maneuver. Situation excellent. I am attacking.

Raptor 1 · Joined: 12 Oct 2007 Posts: 495 Location: Abilene

Ignore the gayness of the video added to the song. This is the best recording I can find of it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7yhY7ioSHU
_________________
"Hard pressed on my right. My center is yielding. Impossible to maneuver. Situation excellent. I am attacking.

DesertWolf · Joined: 27 Jan 2007 Posts: 818 Location: McKinney, TX

Thanks for sharing. I know this will be added to a great testimony once God reveals what he has in store.
_________________
TEARS XO
Assault leads the way!

Steelwolf · Joined: 30 Jan 2007 Posts: 80

He's always sitting on the throne in control man. I'd love to share with you how God showed up in some BIG ways this semester for me to meet some huge needs and He's continuing to do so. Keep on trucking. Check out 2 Peter 2:4-10, God has a way in this situation. I mean, come on, He accomplished the salvation of everyone through the single act of His Son, Jesus Christ's resurrection. He can handle this no problem.